I love you…can’t you see?

I love you.

Don’t you know?

Can’t you see through all my stored-up rage and misery?

By the way that I shut myself out, wallowing in my own self-pity?

When I hurt you deep with my words as sharp as dagger

When I faked my way in and my lies just got fatter

By the way that I nitpick all your littlest mistakes

And by the way my eyes flash with fury and hate

I love you.

Can’t you see?

When I thought that the entire world was hopelessly blue?

And when I slowly started slipping away from you?

When I thought I was smarter and better than them

When I turned and rebelled against the system

All those times when my filthy pride got me in shame

Or those times I deliberately spat on our family name

I love you.

Are you listening to me?

Whenever I ignore the fact that you took care of me?

Or when my quick temper gets the better of my sanity?

The way that I walk, the way that I act

The way that I talk, the sense and empathy that I lack

Too rude to say sorry, to emotionless to even cry

Too prideful to be embarrassed, too arrogant to be polite


Can’t you hear me pounding on the glass?

Those words always tasted so bitter in my mouth

And whenever I hear it, I grimace, I frown, I pout

But now I scream and wail it so many times, ever so desperately

When all my senses returned, and my head was filled with clarity

I finally grew up, dispersed all my childish anger and hate

…But now…now, it’s too late.

I loved you…


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