I slam my head on the cold hard wall
Hello there. I feel great, and so fine.
I trip myself on the high stairs and fall
I’m actually great, absolutely divine.
I draw pretty patterns on my skin with blades
What scars? Oh they’re nothing, just a little mishap.
I blurt out, I speak wrong, I make so many mistakes
Oh forget what I said, that was just a useless trap.
I smile when I can, and I laugh on their cues
That is hilarious, so funny, I’ve been laughing for so long.
But I try to hide all the hurt, I’m confused, a recluse
What do you mean? I’ve done nothing wrong.
It’s been going on for so long, they think it’s all real, but I beg to differ
…And you’ll never know that I am hiding an ugly monster.