I don’t know, if I care
I’m the jerk, life’s not fair
Fighting all the time, this is out of line
She loves me not, loves me not…
CHANGE OF HEART
I despise it when Death lurks among my home
And along with him, Grief comes enveloping along
Familial death was never really my niche
But now, sobbing, bleeding, hurting, it is my only wish.
GOODNIGHT, SLEEP TIGHT
Now I lay you down to sleep
Your nightmares along with you to keep
May they be your companions, forever to tell
As you traverse your empty dirt path on the highway to hell.
I enjoy it when you love me, mommy
When you pull my hair hard and bruise my skin with attacks
I love the way you spit in my face “I hate you“, mommy
And someday I promise will love you back.
RIP, TEARS, SLIP
Drops of salty tears trickle down from my sallow face
And yet still you can’t see the creation you made is a snivelling disgrace
Puddles of emotion and pain, on the floor, blood, tears, sweat, and all
And I could only keep on crying and hope that you’d slip on them and fall.
NEVER THE SAME
It was never the same when you lashed out at me
Humiliated me, stripped my ego bare naked for all to see
And when I finally snapped, and decided to play my own game
To turn my screams against you…this household was never the same.
“Why don’t you just die?”
You yelled in my face as you rudely shut the door goodbye
Dirty little hypocrite, why do you even cry?
Now that I’m the one whispering in your ear, wishing for your demise?
Darkness hugs me tighter until I nearly suffocate
The biting chills of the sneering wind further freeze my hate
My only solution is to let this little spark in my blue hands run amok
And let the whole world burn down, let everyone crumble down and rise with the smoke.
Janus-faced demon, manipulating gullible fools in your fear
You bust out your halo and wings when your guardian angel is near
Child devil playing innocence, brainwashing her until she doubles over and keels
And sinless, deluded guardian angel doesn’t know she’s protecting pure evil.