THE BALLAD OF THE ARROGANT HEARTS: VENTRICLE
Tear it down! Break the barricade!
I wanna see what sound it makes
I hate this flavour with a passion
And I fucking hate the aftertaste!
How does it feel? How does it feel?
Well, it feels like I’m on fire!
Wake up, I know you can hear me…
I.) A Senseless Stardom And A Playwright’s Pain.
Bury me by the open venetian windows, where I can visit you every night
You know my anatomy like a circus act, but you turned off the spotlight
My pavement kiss tastes harsh, but the scissors accentuate my sacrifice
You deceive and desecrate me far too often, but shit, I’ll never suffice
Pose like a drunk pubescent actress, come on Marilyn, show some emotion
Every boy watching television shall receive your desperate transmissions
A noose of flowers and confection confessions melting on your tongue
Your affections were transgressions, but you’re so pretty when you run
I used to write letters and poetry, but now for you, I only write obituaries
Don’t be sorry for little orphan Annie whose cellar is her own sanctuary
I’m a vagabond, you’re a bastard child, we’re a match made in angel hell
Inferno strikes under our tangled veins and the paradise the demon sells
You were memorising phone numbers like it’s the digits on my credit card
If there was a prize for a comely crass drama queen, you’ll win that award
Ignorance might be your best friend, but I’ve been dating her for ten long years
It’s a violent explosion of distractions and disappointment in second gear
As they all say, fuck the love, we’re in this game for the fame and money
Toasting our dead hearts with cocaine and expired 20 dollar champagne
I’ll scream for help, sabotage! Please don’t murder me with pleurisy baby!
And if I cry in my sleep, then you will know that I’m still dancing from pain…
THE BALLAD OF THE ARROGANT HEARTS: AORTA
Make me a promise here tonight!
Love like a tidal wave
Dreamless in early graves
I never want it to be this way
The chemicals will bring you home again
This is it, when it’s done, we can say that
When it’s sudden death we fight back!
II.) Confessions Of A Mad Stranger To An Inebriated Lover.
I confess by the altar, this is my last testament and surrendering admonition
Two souls like an orchestra, and I’ll conduct this symphony of destruction
I’m the only menace to your fugitive life, a key witness and an accomplice
I got scar evidence to lock you behind diamond bars for a million years
You said it wasn’t a crime to feel, but the police are banging down my door
I promised I’d be just a little more sorry, but it’s just been a vulture’s chore
This turbulence in New Jersey, this fucking turbulence is beautiful for me
I may be deleterious and despondent, but your Europe eyes are a mystery
I can smell clashing bitter bourbon and saccharine chocolate in your breath
You sicken me, but I feel better by shutting the closet doors and drinking late
Towed away in our underwater love, and I’ll be drifting away to abyssal death
But if I escape hell, I’ll sneak back into heaven for free, so don’t close the gate
Don’t pay for your blessing, just grind the forest ax and damn, don’t hesitate
The big bad wolf will rend you to shreds if you swing away a second too late
Stuttering from the piercing bullet bites and the blizzard cold on your tattoos
Though I’m taking, I’m taking, I’m f-f-fucking taking back Saturday from you
The jagged edges of your dress are wounding me badly as we’re locked in final embrace
Weighed down and singing our tainted names under the concrete rain like a disgrace
I know I’m a stupid motherfucker, thinking that with eternal hate, I’ll never be left alone
But darling, I’ll leave the answering machine on all night, in case you decide to come home.
I’m an impossible person, a total mess
I haven’t got any clue
I lose my grips on foolish contrivances
That much is all true
But I found someone, a damaged man
Though I never knew
You are the only one who understands
And now I lost you too.
Girls love girls and boys
And never did I think that I
Would be caught in the way
You got me…
A most arrogant sophistication
Chins tilted to the moonlight gleam
A simpleminded denomination
Surrender control and nitroglycerine
Their fugitives dance and drown
Blue as the cold bodies on rivers red
Heaven catches your nightgown
Assembling philosophies you’ll wed
Harlequin boys applaud cavalier
Ordaining their Divine Interventions
Picasso girls wipe off their tears
On the cathedral altar manipulation
Burlesque drag queens on Maine
Tiptoe under blacklight streetlamps
Wipe your collar of lipstick stains
To a last full show, one night stands
Dignified heroes caress starlings
For you, I’ll shed skin on spotlight sets
This cabaret act is proving tiring
So darling, pray for passionate naïveté.
Velvety bands of scarlet strychnine
Incite lips of gold against thorazine
Corpses pile, mental confidentiality
Jealousy and regret shatters sanity
An aftertaste as sweet as medicine
Internal communication last beyond
Menageries and cold sloppy seconds
Ebullience like whirlpools in a stream
Tallahassee sunset, tinctured chancel
Obstructions for his reptilian affinities
Neverwhere, of wars among the stars
Younger than the universe of infinities
Miracles about brotherly camaraderie
Incidents of an instrument symphony
Knives they kept, but allayed hysteria
End; a team of four repose in California.
There’s nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done
Shot through the heart
And you’re to blame
You give love a bad name…
I’m the kind of human wreckage
That no one would dare to love
My carbon dioxide is reeking of
Rotten memories that I once had
I’m the raging storm in a desert
A tantrum on, the whirling sands
Fighting surrendering to defeat
This uproarious rage never stops
I do love it when my makeup runs
My wounds are not meant to stun
Don’t come near, I’m a loaded gun
I’ll only hit you with fool’s lies, hun
But, oh why can’t you just leave me?
I don’t believe in a forever valentine
You fill my heart with cyanide lead
Promise me you’ll go away this time
First time our eyes met, I shuddered
Your beady grey eyes told of a nutter
And I grimaced in my severe disgust
But somehow you mistook it for lust
Because of you, my soul, it fears
I crash on the tide of frigid tears
Life is dark, a monochrome leer
You’re the devil, with evil sneers
Novelettish words so oppressive
You’re so maudlin and defensive
You might reckon me as evasive
But it is not that I am insensitive
Don’t you understand? I can’t feel
It feels like a choice, less of a will
Go ahead, laugh, at the sociopath
I’m no stranger to prejudiced laugh
But why can’t you just leave me?
You’re so blinded, you can’t see
Idiot’s drug love got you too high
I’ll do what it takes, don’t ever try
It was do or die, but you took it literal
Blood drips, yours or mine, I can’t tell
You ask me one last time, hell, I guess
Let’s just get your shit over with—yes.
Why did you have to be so ashamed
To be this grotesque monster, to ever change?
Slithering demons at first you tried to swat away
But you succumbed into evil, letting your heart sway
Your blood flows with taint, and yet you feel so good
Does feeling so powerful make your mind delude?
Someone else whispers lies, curling tongue behind your ear
The girl you thought saved your life reduces your soul to tears
Can’t you please learn to forgive
Even when you’re the one that tends to deceive?
You both have your sins that earned you a spot in hell
Not one of you is innocent, that much you and your brother can tell
Both of you wish to end the war, when one truly was the cause
Your jobs your father forced you to, your fleeting souls have cost
The end of the world is leering dangerously near
And you two are willing throw away your lives to be unknown martyrs
Won’t you come back home
Where your brother laments for leading you to your doom?
He doesn’t care much for the apocalypse if you are led astray
Making desperate deals with angels just so you would stay
Brothers by blood, even though you’re separated
You still call out each other’s names when you feel dessicated
Never mind the Armageddon, never mind the darkness that’s veiled
Just as long as you have someone by your side, everything will be okay.
Stardust glimmering on my pen and ink
Quarks and leptons on my paper bounce and blink
Literature creating an astral symphony
Silver letters and galaxies arching very beautifully.
Trying to catch ideas
Is like chasing a shooting star
They’re vestal, illuminating, and pretty from afar
Yet also fast, fleeting, hard to see, and highly ephemeral.
Trying to weave together a story
Is like weaving a massive sophisticated galaxy
You’ll need many stars and a spool of golden strings
To tie them up together with neat bearings.
Trying to chase our imaginations and creativity
Is like chasing the vast universe endlessly
The stars may look like they’re already running out
And it may seem impossible, you have your itching doubts
But there are still millions to unearth, for the universe is infinite
Just like our imaginations, never-ending, without any limits.
Grace and elegance
The compassion and romance
Lost by sycophants.
Levy on the pain
And sing songs of Arctic rain
Chills that bite the heart.
AND ON HE GOES
Whisper and slither
Dark secrets under covers
On the devil goes.
I asked for a trim
But you must have misheard, and
My heart you severed.
The lights flashed crimson
As my data screamed ERROR:
EMOTIONS NOT FOUND.
Ginger hair flaming
All cowardice dissolving
And she keeps running.
On they dance, doing
Tarantella, with razor
Blades inside their shoes.
Stir my feelings up
Adding sugar to my cup
Toothaches and mistakes.
A DASH OF NOVOCAINE
Lose honour, gain shame
Drown myself in Novocaine
Why does it still hurt?
LETTERS FROM BEYOND
Scratching out letters
The stamp always delivers