It’s a statistical impossibility multiplied
I knew the chances worked against me
But I went on ahead and paid the price
Never knowing how much it really cost me
You wrote unsent letters for someone else
The very same way I always do for you
Are we both just chasing phantoms, then?
Love, are we both craving nothing new?
The pain spreads violence in my thoughts
Saturating every lusted wakeful nightmare
You’re tearing me away, you never found out
That this world is more than willing to play unfair
But I guess it’s my fault, I handed you the bullets
That ran under my skin in these times of despair
When my vulnerabilities gouged holes in my system
Connect the dots all you want, but I’m beyond repair
The last time I said was the last time I’ll do this
But it lasted too long to last—this time, I mean it
You’re just too vague, oh, this is all just too simple
I let my veins die for the sake of an open answer
Now the impossible’s melting, but melting into red
I knocked back bland neurosis just to sedate my head
I knew this was coming for me, I know that you’ll never care
But why does it hurt even more when there’s no space left to be unaware?