Don’t even know if you left a note
Should we blame the Dekapote? Or vilify the Abilify?
You were trying to find your vanilla sky
Then you unravel, facedown on rock bottom
Fucking chewing gravel, because
A human’s so fragile, what can you do?
~*~
Got another issue
Pressing like a migraine
And all the healthy “bless you’s”
Can’t repair, can’t compare
To the amount of extraordinary pain
That’s felt with every angry stare
.
So I take a pistol that’s pink on one end
And swallow it whole ‘cause my life depends
On the gunpowder chemicals
Checking up on my broken physicals
Recycling my blood through and through
10 out of 10 doctors recommend that it’s true
.
They all thought I was blissful
‘Cause they never wanna hear about
The things that are fucking awful
Trained by clinical trials, trained by pharmaceuticals
So I’m still saying “I don’t need your help!”
As I choke on my fucking gavel
.
I’ve got a teaspoon of anxiety for my head
And a glass of borderline thoughts before I go to bed
As my body fights every request and rejects my skin
The strangers may praise me, but I will never win
Even if I had all the money in the world to sell out what I love
Would that change the happiness I lack in my blood?
.
‘Cause everyone’s a critic
And a cynic and they all “get it”
When they’re living in glowing cities
With their missus, acting clever
With their 9-5 IQ’s and 401k GPA endeavours
Feeling guilty their children didn’t get their Nerf Guns
.
But monsters don’t discriminate, it’s all fair game
No blame on no names, every label is the same
You could be sitting in gold and still don’t want to get old
You could be in a prison cell and don’t do what you’re told
Or you could be like me, contemplating a straitjacket tee
On my way out to an existence that doesn’t cope out too badly
.
So maybe there are issues that cannot be fixed with tissues
Or underhanded “you’re fine’s” or endless rounds of “bless you’s”
But it doesn’t hurt to compare and it doesn’t hurt to repair
The amount of extraordinary pain that no fake adrenaline stain
Nor serotonin on our hair, taken with a beggar’s angry stares
I’m only human like you and them after all, would it hurt me to care?
~*~
They press our teardrops into diamonds
They change our sorrows into gold
They’re gonna turn our blood to rubies
We just need someone we can hold…