Sent: June 28, 2017
Received: August 19, 2017
.
[REDACTED]c, p[REDACTED]re fucking for[REDACTED]le m[REDACTED]e.
.
i failed you.
i thought i could win
but i just let override me
i let it bite my skin
i let it numb and desensitise me
i can’t look you in the eye
as you tell me i’m at my best
but i look at your scars
and it feels like a stab in the chest
if you can, then i can too
but fuck, guess we’re both wrong
despite all my attempts
despite all your painless songs
save the time, as i’m falling
so goddamn stop me
but you can’t help anymore
it’s not like the way it used to be
this was…all for you
all for you alone, all this time
and aren’t i so selfless
to pay you with my crimes?
i remember that you always say
“darlin’, you’ll okay”
and i want so badly to believe
but i have a short breaking point
and this is all i can give
the choice is mine for the taking
what’s another funeral wake?
i’ve gone in far too deep in
and i’m left with vanished stars
so i can only pick the best
and if i die, i can finally awaken
i’m a coward, i know
but you don’t have to be
struck with contrition for a
guileless naïve stranger
hell, i’m never strong enough
to overpower my own foolish self
that much, at least, is true
no, i’m just not fucking strong enough
f o r y o u.
i’m so sorry, s.d.
.
but before i say goodbye permanently, i would like to confess that you’r[CONTENT MISSING]